Swings & Roundabouts: Ways I deal with depression and PTSD

I’ve blogged about mental health many a’ time over here on my blog – But there’s always a #TimeToTalk so here we go. One thing I’ve noticed about my mental health is that the term ‘Swings & Roundabouts’ is very applicable to the whole experience. You never know how you’re going to feel one week or the next and it is awful. This past week has been one such week. I have no idea what has happened, as I haven’t had an ‘episode’  in a while and was unprepared.

PTSD stands for ‘Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder’ – it’s something personal that right now I am not prepared to talk about in depth – But you can probably guess why I have it just simply from the fact that I’m not a war veteran. It’s a combination of anxiety, depression and hallucinations which I can tell you is just a fantastic mix (*sarcasm).

These are my ‘quick fixes’ when I have to be a functional human being:

  1. Go for a walk/exercise

    I know we’ve all heard of the benefits of exercise – obviously if your depression is related to exercise in a negative way (e.g. eating disorders) yeah, maybe not for the best. But exercise is great or just a walk, sometimes I go on my lunch break just walking around, it helps me to feel like I’m escaping from whatever I’m scared of. When it’s warmer, I actually go for a run on my lunch break and listen to podcasts – it works like a dream.

  2. Don’t be scared to cry

    A lot of people try to stop themselves from crying – I say, screw that. I’m emotional as hell. Have I cried on breaks? Yeah, because sometimes I’m terrified. I don’t let it interfere with my work as a result, because I ‘let it all out’. It does help with my mental health.

  3. Meditate

    Is it weird to meditate whilst sat on the ladies loo? Maybe… But it works. Plus hardly anybody uses the ladies toilets at my works. It can take a bit of practice meditating don’t get me wrong. Plug your earphones in to block out some noise at first, or/and use an app (such as Headspace).

  4. Deep breaths

    This goes along with meditating, but it’s also one when I’m feeling frustrated. I am quite hot-headed in terms of work. I’m a perfectionist and when a client doesn’t like what I’ve done… Yes I feel frustrated. But I don’t let it get to me, I want to best for a client and it’s all a learning process. I usually again go outside and quickly do some breathing exercises.

    What do you do to keep your cool?

3 comments so far.
  • sevenseasaway

    These are all great! Especially deep breathing has been helping me out in more critical situations.

    When it comes to depression, I found my way of keeping a Happy Jar really helpful. Look here: http://sevenseasaway.com/my-happy-jar/

    Sending you hugs,


    • eleanor.hirst10@gmail.com

      Definitely! Deep breathing is super good, it’s underrated! I’ll have a look! I think I know what you mean, I’ve done one before – but i think it’s definitely something I should stick to!

      Thanks very much!

      E X

    • Thanks Milly 🙂 Hope you’re doing well. Happy jar’s sound like a great idea.


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